This is your only chance.

I hate this feeling, but I don't have the courage or strength to fix it.

I just want to give up.

It's happening again. And I'm not strong enough to stop it.

I tried to tell myself that this is Berkeley and it's hard. My parents and my sister think so too. But it's never enough to justify my grades. Not matter how much they "understand" my difficulties, it will never be greater than the expectations I have of myself. I am dissapointed. Dissapointed with myself and everything else.

Tonight, the weather is perfect for sitting on green grass and just talk with someone. But there's no one.

Last night, I was surprised that my friend understood part of my personality. And she reminded me of who I really am because up to now, I thought I had changed. But the more I thought about it, I realized that I am still like that. The only difference is that I made myself belive that I had changed. I wish I had but the experiences that I've gone through these past few years don't make that task easier.

I was able to cry for the first time in weeks. Three times.

It felt relieving. I had thought I lost all emotion.

This school thing is ridiculous.

Who said you meant anything to me?

You mean nothing. Period.

Thank you for giving me the reason to finally leave.

Life takes pleasure in my constant failure.

I regret being Asian. There's just too many of them.

I know the spring constant for my mattress. Wanna take some data?

Physics midterm. T-minus: 16 hours, 6 minutes.

Sometimes I try to make myself believe that I don't need you anymore. I come up with theses scenarios that make me want to hate you. And they work. Now I can't believe that I'm finally over you and it makes me so happy that I am, besides the fact that the rest of my life is completely shit. For those brief moments that I realized I was actually over you I WAS HAPPY.

This just make me want to hurt you all the more. Make you feel as if you lost the most important thing in the world. But you don't know. And I won't ever tell you.

I think I'll just cry now.

Thanks.

They say I'm too nice.

I'm fed up with pretending to be nice too.

I think it's time for a personality change.

I think it's time I let you know how I feel for a change.

& everyone else can suck it.